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Is God in the Fire?

April 12, 2025 Nancy Carroll

Looks like the Eye of Mordor. Do you see the falling star above the flame?

Bill and I experienced our first wildfire in November.
 
We never dreamed it would be on our property.

Three lights: Fire, sunset, porch light

With dear out-of-town friends visiting, we decided to spend a Monday night at our country cottage on Whisper Woods Lake. It’s only 35 minutes from our house but a world away from the city. They planned to make homemade pasta. We were excited. As we neared our place at about 4:30 p.m., I wondered why sunset was so early as I saw a smoky orange haze in the sky

My first thought was who strung white Christmas lights through the woods across from our small lake? Did someone pour a line of gasoline and light it? It took a minute to realize this was a real forest fire.
 
Grabbing buckets, we ran towards it. We tried dousing the flames with lake water. That was like trying to control an anthill by stomping on it. We saw the fire advancing in lines and patches of flames throughout the woods.
 
We called 911 and kenneled our dogs.
 
Our property is so rural I had to drive to the main county road (dodging abandoned mobile homes) so I could open the gate, wait for the volunteer fire department, flag them down, and lead them to the fire. The fire engine couldn’t make it down our narrow dirt access road so the chief followed me in his pickup truck. When he saw the extent of the fire, he realized it wasn’t just some suburban woman overreacting. Click here to see the video Paul Valerio took. 
 
The sheriff came and flew a huge drone over the woods and estimated the fire was affecting about 50 acres on three different properties. Volunteer fire fighters with water backpacks couldn’t begin to contain it. They called in the Wildfire Unit of the Alabama Forestry Commission. By then it was dark. How they got the huge bulldozer down to our property I’ll never know. They started plowing through the woods to create a firebreak.

As the sun set, the woods glowed red and reflected in the water.  It was awesome, awful, beautiful, and eerie all at the same time.  It was like a scene from The Lord of the Rings with the red eye of Mordor throbbing right there in Vincent, Alabama.

All I could do was stay out of the way, take photos, and pray.
 
O God, please don’t let anyone be hurt. The firefighters with their water packs, shovels, and axes. Neighbors whizzing around on four-wheelers in the dark. Our friends watering the ground around our cottage.
 
O God, spare our cottage and our neighbor’s structures. Please don’t let the fire reach the gas line that runs close to our property (imagining a cinema-worthy BOOM!)
 
O Lord, bring rain. Most of the state of Alabama was in a month-long drought, tinder dry, and under fire bans. (They think the fire started from a neighbor’s weekend campfire.)
 
After they determined the bulldozer stopped the fire from advancing, the fire chief felt it was safe to let the rest of the fire die out as it reached the water’s edge. Everyone left sooty and tired, but unharmed and satisfied. We celebrated with a very late dinner, pondering what just happened.
 
 We woke the next morning to the smell of lingering smoke and the sound of gentle rain, although there had been only a 30 percent chance of precipitation. Our friends left to return to Georgia. Bill and I tramped through the blackened woods seeing flaming potholes where the fatwood resin in the tree stumps kept burning. It felt like another scene from The Lord of Rings with columns of smoke in a blackened landscape rising around us. Even two weeks later, trees continued to smoke and burn internally.

To the world, it might have looked like an effective controlled burn. But I knew God controlled that fire.
 
It is ironic that our vision for our Whisper Woods Lake property is based on 1 Kings 19. The prophet Elijah, weary and confused after battling the evil Queen Jezebel, crawls under a broom tree to sleep, eat, whine, and try to hear from God. After he rested, this is what he heard:
 
“Go, stand on the mountain at attention before God. God will pass by. A hurricane wind ripped through the mountains and shattered the rocks before God, but God wasn’t to be found in the wind; after the wind an earthquake, but God wasn’t in the earthquake; and after the earthquake fire, but God wasn’t in the fire; and after the fire a gentle and quiet whisper.” 1 Kings 19:11-12 MSG
 
What whisper did I hear from God after the fire?
 
I had been in a prayer drought for many months. What I had been believing was, “God works but maybe not for me.” I could see others whose prayers were answered but I was waiting and running low on faith, feeling alone and confused.
 
I was like whiny Elijah.  Crawling under the broom tree, wondering if I was the last one left on God’s team or if God had forgotten me.
 
In this spiritual as well as real 911 moment, I prayed and asked others to pray. And they did, believing for me. On the morning after the fire, I could sense God’s whisper as I heard the gentle rain, rain I had convinced myself by the weather app wouldn’t come.
 
I couldn’t get around God’s specific answers to our prayers:
 
I prayed no one would get hurt. No one was hurt.
 
I prayed that no structures would be harmed. The fire was contained to undeveloped land.
 
I prayed for rain. God sent the rain despite the meteorologists’ calculations.
 
He answered in ways I didn’t “think” of praying.
 
The fire chief pointed out that after weeks of low humidity, it was at 100 percent humidity that evening which kept the fire from leaping up into the crown of the trees.
 
We rarely go to our cottage on a Monday afternoon in November. We arrived “right on time” to get help. If we hadn’t, who knows how long it would have been until someone discovered the fire. 
 
Our neighbors came and helped us. I had been in despair over the huge divide in our nation in the weeks before the election. But in this emergency, there was no Red or Blue. There were just neighbors helping neighbors, asking for nothing in return.
 
Like with Elijah, God whispered that he was there in my confusion, isolation, and weariness. He heard and answered my prayers right on time. I was humbled by his grace and power to his unbelieving daughter.
 
In early January we saw green sprouts in the still-black ash along the trail.

Photo by Bill Carroll

It reminded me of Romans 15:13 in the Message:
 
Oh! May the God of green hope fill you up with joy, fill you up with peace, so that your believing lives, filled with the life-giving energy of the Holy Spirit, will brim over with hope!
 
He answered beyond my requests.
 
He was in the fire.
 
He was the whisper after the fire.
 
He is the God of green hope.
 
In my drought of unbelief, he whispered that I am not alone. He is with me. And he sent his reinforcements. 

Thank you to all who prayed and all who helped: Vincent Volunteer Fire Department, Harpersville Fire Department, Shelby County Sheriff’s Department, Alabama Forestry Commission Wildfire Unit, our Vincent neighbors, and our friends Paul Valerio and Elizabeth and Connor Butz who helped douse the fire and fed us pasta and left with good stories.
 

In Broomtree Ministry, Community, Confessions, Courage, Scripture, Soul Care, Story, Uncategorized Tags fire, Vincent AL, Elijah, Whisper Woods Laek, nancy carroll, nancywcarroll
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What I'm (Un)Learning in Spiritual Direction

April 12, 2025 Nancy Carroll

I'm in my second year of spiritual direction certification training at Richmont Graduate University. The first year was filled with reading, exploring spiritual formation practices, learning to listen, and practicing spiritual direction with other students in the cohort. This year, there's all that and practicing with a brave group of volunteer directees.

I am trying to unlearn my need (and bad habit) to interrupt and ask too many questions. My tendency to teach and "fix" and give the "right"answer. It's exposing my fear of "What if God doesn't show up?"

I'm learning to "zip my lips" and wait.

I'm learning that God does show up and if i slow down and am quiet, He will give the directee the comfort of his presence and maybe even the next small step. I'm learning it's so much better when she hears it from the Spirit, and not from me. On his timeline, not mine. That He loves them so much more than I do. 

It's been worth the cost of tuition if for nothing more than being a better parent to adult kids. Can I slow down, stop giving my insight and "advice," and trust that God will give them what they need when they need it? Shut yo' mouth, mama, and listen. See what the Lord can do. And find out how much more He loves them than I do. 

What are you (un)learning? 

In Confessions, Soul Care, Spiritual Direction, Uncategorized Tags Spiritual direction, nancywcarroll, zip my lips, unlearning
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Live Lightly

April 12, 2025 Nancy Carroll

What if people are attracted not just by light but by lightness?
 
Do I think I make Jesus attractive by my gravitas, seriousness, burden-bearing, sighing? 
 
So be content with who you are, and don’t put on airs. God’s strong hand is on you; he’ll promote you at the right time. Live carefree before God; he is most careful with you. 1 Peter 5:6-7 MSG
 
What if I really believed he cares for me, is careful with me, that he will not let me be blown away if I live lightly? This downy feather responds to the breath of the wind. It floats. It rests. It doesn't cast stones; but even without much substance, it does casts a big shadow.  
 
Would you rather imagine children chasing feathers, dandelion seeds, bubbles, and butterflies or strapping on heavy backpacks? What if we tantalize them with our lightness instead of breaking them with heavy burdens? 
 
“Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.” Matt 5:16 MSG
 
What would it feel like to live “freely and lightly" and not labor so hard in my Christian life? 
 
Then Jesus said, “When I sent you out and told you to travel light, to take only the bare necessities, did you get along all right?” “Certainly,” they said, “we got along just fine.” Luke 22:35 MSG
 
Travel light. Let God carry the heavy stuff. 
 
(I've begun a 100-day project of choosing one of my photos and thinking of one word and Scriptures that resonate with it. And all the questions stirring inside. Because as I grow older, I'm living in the questions much more than the answers. I'll feature a few of my photo-words in upcoming newsletters.)

In Confessions, Creativity, Laughing at the Future, Scripture, Soul Care, Spiritual Direction, Story Tags Live lightly, Feather, nancywcarroll, photo reflections, lightly
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Beauty Refreshers: Photographer and Noticer Mary Jo Hoffman

May 29, 2024 Nancy Carroll

Mary Jo Hoffman inspires me. Her book STILL: The Art of Noticing is now out. Look at some of the images here.

It's been more than 12 years since Mary Jo committed to a daily art project where she finds something in nature that inspires her. She photographs it (often in a collage) and posts it on her blog and Instagram. That is more than 4,500 days. She says "the art of dailiness" has changed her so she is often in a state of creative noticing or deep play. She made it simple enough to fit around family life. She found through this practice that the process is sacred, not the results.

Image by Monicelli / Phaidon

She graciously answered my question, What do you want to give the world?

"I would say the most important things I want to give the world are the following:

1) I believe that art is an energy transference from the artist to the viewer. When I share my art, I hope to pass on my wonder and awe at our natural world;

2) I created STILL with an implicit promise that it would be a quiet corner of the internet that my viewers could visit when they felt a need for simplicity and beauty.

3) Finally, I hope to inspire my viewers to see their own environments with new eyes. Nothing makes me happier than finding a new way to present the most ordinary of subjects, so that it catches people by surprise and reminds them how much beauty they are surrounded by every day, wherever they happen to be."

Image by Monicelli / Phaidon

She shares her idea of radical incrementalism and how we can tap into our creativity by doing a little bit every day in a podcast with Julie Berman of Woman with Cool Jobs. Watch a short video from six years ago (when she was only at 3,000 photos) to catch a vision of her vision (and how she shared it with her family).  

Image by Monicelli / Phaidon

In Beauty Refresher, Creativity, Story, Uncategorized Tags Beauty Refresher, Mary Jo Hoffman, STILL, nancywcarroll, noticing, dailiness
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